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[Aug. 28th, 2009|12:17 am] |
MOVED.
(if you want to know the address, just ask me directly thanks!(:)
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[Aug. 25th, 2009|01:53 pm] |
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prelims is ending real soon.
i really can't wait.
there's like bio p1 and p3 and chem p1 left.
i really hope bio p3's gonna be alright.
i really dont want to fail it.
for this prelims, i just wish i can pass everything.
anw, it's not that i really fail but in o's term, i failed but a's, i still passed.
still, i wish i could have done better.
oh wells.
i just got to work harder i guess.
i'm not going to give up till the end.
只要别放弃失望会变成希望.
on the happier note, i've finally have a paper which i think it's okay!
like, i know i can pass(:
maybe it's a start of a new beginning!
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sometimes, it's get really tiring trying to pull off everything.
you are trying hard at something but for some reason, it just fails you and makes you get even more disappointed.
you don't even know what you are fighting for or hanging on to.
but you just don't want to have any regrets.
you just keeps trying, fight on, hang on, coz you want to see that glimmer of hope that's end the end of the road.
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random.
sometimes, i think back at the past, reflecting if i should've done what i've done or should have loved him when i'm not really sure.
but, i look at the present now, i know i've tried hard at every single thing and don't think i'd much regrets.
though each of you enter and leave my life, making me smile and cry, i'm just thankful for the experience and the memories coz you only made me more clear who i really want.
every single breakup only made me realise we aren't suited for each other though we used to be madly in love, claiming that you love me and i love you.
but, when the breakup comes, it just seems like it's just a whole load of lies.
i remember my friend told me that proximity blurs lines.
and come to think of it, i think it's really true.
it's when you are very close to each other that you are can't bear to let that attention and affection dies off.
you just like the feeling of being taken after and know that no matter what he will be there for you.
when you smile, he will be there to share the joy.
when you cry, he will be there to comfort you.
when you are pissed off, he will try to make you happy again.
every time you think of him, your phone will vibrate and he's the one who sent you the message.
you smiled coz it feels as though the both of you have telepathy.
you always wait by your phone for him to message and when he did, you convince yourself that you do have a place in his heart.
it's a wonderful feeling i know and you can't forget him when you break up.
i used to think we were made for each other but till the day i saw you moved on, i know i was wrong and had the sudden enlightenment that it's useless to keep clinging on to the past when everyone is moving on but me.
you know it's impossible but i keep living in denial thinking that you are the only one for me.
i took a really long time but finally i've learnt to let go and know that only by letting you go, then will i find a better someone and He will have a better plan for me.
He put you in my life for a reason and then want you to leave it coz you aren't the one for me.
there's someone out there that He wants to put in my life and i've always known that.
it takes time to understand all these, but i'm just glad i did finally<3
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you made me smile.
you made me angry.
you made me cry.
you made me think of you.
you made me wonder what's going on in your mind.
you made me wonder why i bother to do all these at times.
you made me really confused as to what i ought more to do.
but at the end, when you just grabbed my hand and walked on, i know all these don't matter anymore.
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[Aug. 15th, 2009|04:08 pm] |
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i hate the feeling of fear and anxiety when you know you cant do anything about it.
oh man, please help please): |
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[Aug. 15th, 2009|03:49 pm] |
prelims is starting on monday.
i dont think im really prepared for it.
i really hope/ wish/ pray i wont do very bad or maybe i wish i could do not bad.
if i dont do relatively okay, i really can predict the whole blame-game shit to start right after prelims.
sigh sigh sigh.
someone with the genius brain, please spread/ pass/ give me some of your smartness to save me from the hell im gonna receive.
anyway, i really think the exam committee has serious problems.
like who on earth put two hardcore papers on the same day.
maths and econs.
bio and chem (2days)
nutcase, seriously.
ahhhhhhh, hate this seriously.
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[Aug. 7th, 2009|11:27 am] |
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countdown to prelims: 10 days.
sigh.
let's go guys, we can do it!(((((:
- CROSS FINGERS-
on the happier note, UP is out now!!!!
hahaha, the fat boy and the old man cartoon! yay! shall go watch it later if i can hahaha
i've been waiting for its release since eons and it's out now now now!
okay i shall go study now and then go watch later.
i dont care lahhhhhh i want to go watch some cheap thrillxD
life's gonna sucks next week when i keep fearing im not going to make it for my prelims.
tick tock tick tock, 3 seconds have been wasted to type this which means 3 seconds short of using my brain to do work.
time really flies when you just wish it could stop for you to finish all your work.
but sadly, things always don't work this way.
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[Aug. 1st, 2009|05:28 pm] |
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17 more days to prelims and im not even half prepared.
i really think there's something wrong with my stomach, sighhh.
it's like my stomach keeps contracting and i keep having diarrhoea.
i wonder what's wrong.
it was really bad on friday and i'd actually fainted at the station.
thank goodness for some kind teacher that helped me.
she's really nice by the way- helped me, comfort me, and even stayed with me awhile(:
thank you so much((((:
siannn.
at this point when i really want to study, my body's not helping me.
sighhhh.
i realised everytime when i have some major exams or something, there's bound to be something that's happening to me.
maybe when more things comes to me during a stressful period, it'll toughen me to be a better person?
hahaha, i dont know.
sigh, i shall go do my work now or maybe i should just go clear my stomach.
it just keeps making weird sounds and i just hope it'll stop.
if it continues till tomorrow, i'm gonna see a doc on monday already):
siannnn, i have been eating regular meals and more food more than before actually.
i really dont know why this is happening.
i just wish i wasn't that weak.
weak= troubling other people to take care of me and i dont like it actually.
i just dont like to 麻烦别人))))):
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[Jul. 26th, 2009|12:44 am] |
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A lot of things happened recently, though not entirely about me, but it still bothers me.
prelims are coming and i really hope i can manage everything.
sigh, where's the drive that i used to have and the will to do well for studies.
they seem to waver and fade away as time goes by.
there's not much time left and i'm going back to work already.
i really wish time would stop for me or slow down for me to do things i want.
but apparently, reality simply doesnt work that way and we still have to accept the harsh reality no matter how demoralizing or dreadful it seems to be. |
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[Jul. 14th, 2009|06:22 pm] |
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one month to prelims.
one week till common test.
sigh.
i almost cried today coz all of a sudden i just thought i really cant make it for my prelims, like it's really going to die, die and die.
sigh, i really hope i can make it.
like there's too much expectations and stake on this exam.
pray hard that i'll do it and not let anything affect me(:
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on the contrary, it has been long since i take bus rides without plugging on my ipod.
for some reason, i dont feel like doing it when i got on the bus today.
and, it kind of made me think about certain stuff(:
so, the conclusion i've made after the bus ride was that from today onwards, i won't think about too much stuff and just live the life the way as it is. i shall let He to decide for me and let whatever that is to happen happened and i'll just put in my best in everything that i do so that i'll have no regrets(:
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no more thoughts, no more questions, i'm going to cherish every moment we have with each other and let time be the best testament of the love that we have.
we'll going to make it and come out stronger, and i'll do anything just for you.
right now, there will only be you and studies in my mind and no her, him or her and just you, me and just you.
"i can't let go. i don't let go. i will hold on her tightly and make her happy." goo jun pyo (hahaha, some sweet guy from boys over flowers) |
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